Because of my own pride I wasted months of feeling horrible. I was too ashamed to talk to my doctor for fear that he would think I was a complainer who wanted attention.
Because of my independence I spend days dragging my body around to only half-heartedly take care of my kids when there are lists of people who thoroughly enjoy my children and would love spending a day with them.
Because of my inward focus, my pain is magnified.
Because of my need to do everything for myself, I dropped my son when my arms became too weak to lift him out of his car seat.
Because of my unwillingness to ask for help I have felt miserable and alone.
Because I refuse to let anyone else take over my daily tasks, I snap at my husband and children out of frustration.
Because of my husbands love and concern for me I have sought help. At the onset of my most severe symptoms, I ignored them and hoped they would go away. I had been to my family doctor at least once a month and been through a painful sinus surgery that made me worse so my husband finally encouraged me to dig a little deeper. My husband has been my driving force to keep going.
Because my sister wasn’t willing to let me settle for mediocre answers, I am looking for the right diagnosis. After months of still being sick with sinus and respiratory infections and coming to the end of options because I was taking the strongest antibiotic my insurance would pay for I started looking for other possibilities. With a suggestion from my sister I found information about a link between sinus infections and autoimmune diseases.
Because of my mom’s willingness to serve I have been able to go to all of my doctor’s appointments without worry of who will take care of my kids. Silence to gather my thoughts and discuss my options has been priceless.
Because of the guidance and attention of a caring doctor I have found the right path to hopefully start feeling better soon.
Because of the prayers and encouragement of friends and family I have found the strength to keep going when I just wanted to give up.
Because of the grace of God, I do not have to be independent, alone, helpless, proud, ashamed or self-focused. God has given me an amazing abundance of Christian family and friends who have overwhelmed me in generosity and love. To resist this is to ignore a generous gift from the One who loves me more than any other. So…lesson learned: I need other people.